Grace

Overall I have had an amazing peace falling over me, one that is indescribable.  Unimaginable. Amazing. A peace that surpasses all understanding. Peace that can only be given by the Comforter.   People are walking on egg shells around me, trying not to say the wrong thing, trying hard to make it be okay for me. They are not crying, trying to laugh, trying to be happy all the time. This is hard. I want to cry with you, I want to feel the loss with you. This is why I shared our son. This is why we got so close. To not have these moments with you is a loss. Please share them as we shared all the countless appointments, the long nights, the happy times, the progress.  We are a family knit together through these experiences and I feel like they are missing, the ropes of the web being cut. Family, friends, sisters~ SHARE your heart with me. Be real. WE will get through it together. We will laugh, we will cry, we will ball. This is all part of it, of loving unconditionally a little boy on a Great Mission. We can share it and be real together.  And then maybe, just maybe, you can have a little taste of the awesomeness of our God's Amazing Grace.

14 “Do not let your hearts be troubled. You believe in God; believe also in me. 2 My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? 3 And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. 4 You know the way to the place where I am going.”

5 Thomas said to him, “Lord, we don’t know where you are going, so how can we know the way?”
6 Jesus answered, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. 7 If you really know me, you will know my Father as well. From now on, you do know him and have seen him.”
8 Philip said, “Lord, show us the Father and that will be enough for us.”
9 Jesus answered: “Don’t you know me, Philip, even after I have been among you such a long time? Anyone who has seen me has seen the Father. How can you say, ‘Show us the Father’? 10 Don’t you believe that I am in the Father, and that the Father is in me? The words I say to you I do not speak on my own authority. Rather, it is the Father, living in me, who is doing his work. 11 Believe me when I say that I am in the Father and the Father is in me; or at least believe on the evidence of the works themselves. 12 Very truly I tell you, whoever believes in me will do the works I have been doing, and they will do even greater things than these, because I am going to the Father. 13 And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. 14 You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it.
15 “If you love me, keep my commands. 16 And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another advocate to help you and be with you forever— 17 the Spirit of truth. The world cannot accept him, because it neither sees him nor knows him. But you know him, for he lives with you and will be[c] in you. 18 I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you. 19 Before long, the world will not see me anymore, but you will see me. Because I live, you also will live. 20 On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you. 21 Whoever has my commands and keeps them is the one who loves me. The one who loves me will be loved by my Father, and I too will love them and show myself to them.”...
 27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid.